I have a love hate relationship with counting. Last fall after my 125 days, I started keeping track of my drinking. I got agitated with all the logging I was doing for that and for exercise so I stopped. Unfortunately when I tried to move my counting detail out of my blog, I cut it out, got distracted and never pasted it anywhere else. So then I lost it completely. I really wish I could refer back to that, to see the escalation as it occurred.
I don't appear
Horrible sleep and small headache until about 4am. No issues this morning per se but I am really tired. I feel like every time I drink now I am saying goodbye to it. It's as if I am trying to get it out of my system.
Yesterday hubby had a really rotten day on many fronts, poor guy. We have family coming to visit over the next week so he marched out to stock up on wine. It's his family so this was more about fortitude than being a well prepared host.
I was cooking dinner and he came in with a glass of wine which I hadn't asked for. I kept staring at it and then was like "what the heck". Then we got into an argument over something stupid. I think we were both stressed and itching for a fight. We did make up but drank a bunch in between. I pretty much remember heading to bed but it's fuzzy. Yuck.
I'm just going to keep trudging along. I'm not going to stop blogging, not going to stop counting. I can still celebrate that I have only drunk twice in 18 days. So I'm tracking 18 days since I came back to really wanting to focus on my drinking, drank 2 times and am on a new Day 1!